Intrusive Thoughts Natalie Jane

I'm historically heartbroken
Drowning in my own emotions
One minute away from the breaking down, down, down
I'm always leaving empty-handed
No one wants a heart that's damaged
Only know what love that lets me down, down, down
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Staring contest with the walls
I'm giving in to my intrusive thoughts
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What if I never find anybody to love
Or I finally get the chance and I fuck it all up?
'Cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to leave
Woah, what if I get to heaven and it's not even real
And I die before telling you how I really feel?
'Cause it feels like hell and I just can't help but think
That maybe love's not for me
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If you don't look too closely
You can't even tell I'm lonely
Even though it keeps me up at night, night, night
I try to keep myself distracted
But I got all these awful habits
Of listening to voices in my mind, mind, mind
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Oh staring contest with the wall
I'm giving into my intrusive thoughts, oh
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What if I never find anybody to love
Or I finally get the chance and I fuck it all up?
'Cause I can't get hurt if I'm the first one to leave
Woah-oh
What if I get to heaven and it's not even real
And I die before telling you how I really feel?
'Cause it feels like hell and I just can't help but think
Maybe love's not for me
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Oh-oh, maybe love's not for me, oh-oh-oh
Maybe love's not for me
Maybe love's not for me
For me, for me, for me
Maybe love's not for me